DrexilWatcher

The holidays are a rather taxing time for me. There are a million plans to make and well...what am I supposed to get more make for those that are getting gifts from me? I apologize to those I didn't get to this year...one can only stretch so far.

After that's all good and done its two weeks or so to myself. This itself can drive anyone nuts. I'm not sure how sane I am to begin with, but who is? Its enough to go get out a hockey mask and chainsaw. Sounds like something I should paint... I digress.

A friend this year asked to check up on her pet cat this year. I've met the furball in the past. Generally I just don't know what to do with them. Generally I shy away. Being the overachiever that I am, simply taking this approach would not suffice. So I spent a few hours each day with it. Now I was under the impression that cats didn't care you existed. I mean the stereotype suggested to me that they just needed you to live. This one wouldn't let me get comfortable without it! I grew to understand why owners went and took gratuitous numbers of photographs of their feline friends. I also learned that cats have very sharp nails...that aside the company is something that I found almost as good as having someone else to talk to. I may enjoy this company more then a person's. All a pet wants is to be taken care of and love. This I can do. Human socializing gets almost too complicated for me. Perhaps all I need is the simple stuff.

Moral of the story: cats ain't so bad...and being lonely sucks.


New years resolution:  post more stuff up and and be more open with people.
Either I'm getting a blog or posting more journals durn it...and pictures!

Its something to me to make some really pretty work. Its just hard to find the time. That is not to say I am not working. Each day I work on something small. Not worth showing the world. But with work how it is and internship work on the side I just can't ever get at finishing anything. Its rather depressing. In fact I've shudder away from deviantart for a good while for the shame of having.nothing to show y'all. I do wish to put more up nd do plan on it. Alas my computer is now dead . I spose the fates are against me eh? Hopefully I will have a new computer soon. And a new income.

Unfortinately work is laying us off. Any idea how to make money with art? I haven't the faintest clue. Anyways when my computer is back up please send me a message some time. I like to talk....about pretty much anything. Ideas are welcome too! Perhaps I will use it. Never know.

I think a lot of why I don't post anything these days is that I'm either too busy or I lose interest in a lot of the work I start up ( I think I have something like thirty or so pieces that I may never finish sitting there in the background).  It's only when I feel forced to finish something that I will push it to a finished product right now.  For example the book cover I have been working on for a friend is probably one of my best pieces that actually has people in it.  The employer forces me forward.  But he tells me I'm doing a great job the entire way.  I sound selfish, but if he told me I am no good I don't think I'd have any pride left in the piece by the end of it.  

It seems  I lose sight easily.  Probably because there is no one there to set me straight.  The goal has always been to make something amazing.  I want people to say "Wow!" or "Woah!".  There is pride in that.  That pride is a great motivator.  I will try and push out way more stuff for you guys to see.  No I will.  And it will be good stuff to see.

In another note minecraft has partially consumed my soul...

So I havn't posted a new Journal in months!!!  That's not very exciting lol...specially since it's been more like over half a year...However I am near graduating and that is very good news!!! Wewt.  But before all that I have one more semester and the finals for this semester to beat down.  Semesters are like levels and the finals are always the Big Bosses.  Loans are the looming boss that I know I'll have to kill later...But not yet, the story just hasn't gotten that far.

What has college gotten me?  Well I draw a lot...however I feel that I've learned a lot of things in my time here, mostly from myself!  Yeah I've got a ton more to learn on my own time.  But its the art finals of this term that has opened my eyes to how fun it can be to draw people if I force myself in the right direction.  It only took drawing a bagillion people before I figured a few new things out that makes it more interesting.  Power Leveling basically.  But I think I'm going to try and draw an emotion or feeling as a person face every day.  If I like it I'll post it up.  But I'll try and post one up a week.  If I don't do this, someone please punch me.  I really want to see if this experiment forces me to enjoy drawing people further hahah.

Oh and I only drink dew for Lan and Finals times. I'm Healthier HONEST!!

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So I havn't posted a new Journal in months!!!  That's not very exciting lol...specially since it's been more like over half a year...However I am near graduating and that is very good news!!! Wewt.  But before all that I have one more semester and the finals for this semester to beat down.  Semesters are like levels and the finals are always the Big Bosses.  Loans are the looming boss that I know I'll have to kill later...But not yet, the story just hasn't gotten that far.

What has college gotten me?  Well I draw a lot...however I feel that I've learned a lot of things in my time here, mostly from myself!  Yeah I've got a ton more to learn on my own time.  But its the art finals of this term that has opened my eyes to how fun it can be to draw people if I force myself in the right direction.  It only took drawing a bagillion people before I figured a few new things out that makes it more interesting.  Power Leveling basically.  But I think I'm going to try and draw an emotion or feeling as a person face every day.  If I like it I'll post it up.  But I'll try and post one up a week.  If I don't do this, someone please punch me.  I really want to see if this experiment forces me to enjoy drawing people further hahah.

Oh and I only drink dew for Lan and Finals times. I'm Healthier HONEST!!

XD